pick me up

oh god, tonight Shawn kept picking me up. not as much as usual.. but this time it was worse. I was picked up and somehow ended up being upside down. don't ask. anyways, i kept hitting him and telling him to put me down and 'fuck you'. but NO, he kept walking around asking 'where are you?'. he walked around the living room then back to my room and he finally put me down. I slowly went to the floor. He thought that i passed out, and i softly said no. i was dizzy and i didn't like that feeling. I was very serious afterward, saying that i didn't enjoy that, even if he claimed it to be a natural high.

I also made a jell-o pudding desert. it's SO yummy. Shawn got a little preview and he said, in his exact words "I'd turn gay for that, it's like heaven" lol, i censored that a little, because he goes into unpleasant details. I can't wait for jess and kim to get here (in montreal) tomorrow. we're going to have a lot of fun, and i hope nothing bad happens and that they don't forget my necklace and bracelet.

I have so many things to do for tomorow. I have to finish a project, buy a few things, do some homework. go downtown. meet up with jess and kim.  go back to rez. I'm going to be so tired by the end of the day. yet, i can't wait.